Back To The Grind!

Happy Monday y'all!

We had a pretty good weekend in the Birdhouse (aka, our house, since everyone says it looks like a little bird house)! Friday night, after the kids were down, the mister went out with some friends to play pool, so this mama got the whole house to herself! WOOT! I chose to spend it vegging out on the couch, sipping wind, watching Parentood on Netflix and trolling blogs. Pretty exciting stuff, huh? Saturday morning the in laws picked up Cash to take him to a kids carnival with his cousins all day, and ended up keeping him over night. We had a pretty chill day here, I caught up on some cleaning, we played games, and that night a few friends came over and we drank beer and played Hot Shots Golf. We're loving that game right now, and play it most nights. You can play with up to four people so its so much fun when we have people over, which is often. Sunday morning my dad called to say he and my step mom would be coming into SA and wanted to meet for lunch! Yesss! Free lunch! And they always go somewhere nice, so we love it when they come into town. Luckily the in laws dropped Cash off just in time and we headed to The Rim to meet them at BJ's. We originally planned to go to Red Robin, but there was a wait so we went next door to BJ's. We'd been there before and both the service and food was mediocre, but we decided to try it again anyway. Unfortunately, it was the same. But my folks had were having so much fun with the boys that it didn't really matter. Cash was showing off all his smarty pants tricks, spelling, counting, and naming colors and shapes, while Sylas hammed it up like his usual adorable self. They're so cute together. Anyway, afterward we decided to go over to Boerne to their new humongous HEB for a little grocery shopping. It was a pretty great time, and they totally hooked me up with a bunch of groceries (including 2 HUGE bottles of wine and stuffed salmon that I'm planning to make tonight!) and even filled up my car! WOOT! I love my parents. They're pretty fantastic. And I absolutely love seeing them with the boys. Even my step mom, who has never really cared for kids, LOVES the boys. Especially Cash, she has so much fun with him and its pretty awesome to see. So we said goodbye and came back home for a relaxing rest of the day.
Today its back to the grind! I got up early this morning, knees feeling good, and did day two of the 30 Day Shred! Stamina wise, I could tell it was easier for me than the first day, but still butt kicking. My knees were another story. By the end, I couldn't even walk or move. My knees were THROBBING and I wanted to cry from the pain. So I grabbed an anti-inflammatory, sat down, and elevated my poor knees. Thankfully, now I'm feeling a lot better. I think I just need to take this thing one day at a time, keep resting and icing between workouts, and keep up the hard work. I had a Dr's appointment on Friday afternoon, where they told me Id lost 8lbs. (Thats a total of 19 in the last almost 3 months) I'm not going to lie, I was more than disappointed. Ive been working out hard this month and completely changed my diet for the better, yet somehow lost less than last month. I came home and measured myself, thinking that I'd see the results better there. Nope. I only lost a total of ONE lousy inch! GRRRR.... this knee pain only let me work out 3 days last week, and Ro's parents brought over a package of cookies (UGH) that we snuck into a couple times so I know I hadnt been as good as I was weeks before, but still, SO discouraging. I was pretty bummed, and spend much of the day sulking. BUT its my own fault. I need to get serious and stay strict with myself if I want to see the results I'm looking for. Also, we'll be investing in a scale so we can stay on top of daily weight better. So I'm vowing that this week will be better!

Hope you all had a great weekend and a happy, happy Monday!
Thats all for now...

xo, L

Wednesday Woes

So here's whats got me down folks… The mister and I started a pretty big life change about 2 and a half weeks ago. We started running 2 miles every day, we became more conscious about what and how much  we were eating, and we entirely cut out regular soda (gasp!) from our diet. Anyone who knows us, knows how much we both LOVE soda. I really really do. Drink of choice, hands down, is a coke, on the rocks, with a straw. But, those days are over. We both were so tired of not being happy with how we look. Me especially I think. Since having Sylas, Ive been in complete disgust of my body and have let it ruin parts of my life. Ive developed social anxiety, I'm forever uncomfortable in my skin, and I get edgy and uneasy around people. I found myself avoiding going out in public, or socializing at all because of this intense self loathing and self consciousness. Its ridiculous, I know, but I cant help it. So, instead of being a victim of insecurities, I decided I needed to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! And as soon as I started, it kicked Ro into gear and he joined me. So that’s exactly what we’ve been doing. At first the running was brutal. I was SO out of shape and we both spent the whole first week sore as hell. The second week, the soreness went away, the run got easier, and we both started feeling a little bit better of ourselves. The end of each week was an accomplishment! We’d tell anyone who’ll listen how we run 2 miles every day. It became such a great start to every day. At the beginning of the second week, I took measurements of my body so a week later when I re-measured, I could see the results for myself. I lost 5 whole inches!! In only ONE week! I was ecstatic, and honestly say I felt smaller. Everything was going great. But then, the second Friday of running I started getting some pretty severe knee pain. So I figured, after resting the weekend, Id be fine by this Monday. And after seeing my measurement results, I was stoked to start running again! Monday came around, and I could tell just getting out of bed that my knees were still sore. But I ran anyway, with pain in every step. By the end of the run the pain was pretty intense and persisted for the rest of the day. I couldn’t even move my knees without severe pain, let alone walk on them. That night I ended up having to take pain meds since, even at rest, my knees throbbed. So yesterday I decided I definitely needed to rest them again. This sucked! Here I was, losing 5 inches in a week from this running, accomplishing my main goal in life right now, because of this awesome source of cardio, and now I cant do it anymore. My body just wont let me! I did some research and am pretty sure I developed a pretty bad case of Runner’s Knee. No bueno. So yesterday I mowed the front and back lawn instead of running, and at the end I really felt like it was an equivalent workout, but my knees were still killing me. And that brings us to today. Knees are still too sore to run, so I skipped it AGAIN. I'm friggin pissed at this point. I just want to run and get in shape and feel good about myself! But my body will not let me. *lesigh. That, plus Ive got a wisdom tooth that has been KILLING me lately, but I don’t have insurance or the cash to take care of it right now, so I'm stuck. Stuck with  throbbing tooth and knees,  and a big fat ass that I cant work out to get rid of.

The mister says we can invest in some craigslist bikes and start biking instead of running, which is awesome, but we have to wait a week or two to get some since right now we’re saving all our money for Reggae Fest in Austin next weekend. The in laws are gonna keep the boys all day and overnight so we can go! I'm SO stoked. But id hoped to lose some more poundage before! My plan now is to go to Walmart today and pick up Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. Maybe if I do this instead of running for 30 days, I’ll lose enough weight so that running is easier. If not then we’ll start biking! Bottom line, I'm not giving up. I may be side lined today (which I feel like complete shit about) BUT tomorrow is another day and now that Ive seen what this change is doing for my body, I'm DETERMINED to continue. I want to get all the way down to my pre-Cashy weight, and I know this is how to do it!

Thanks for listening to me whine, and Happy Hump Day y'all!

Xo, L

Ps. Easter blog to come later today J