Wednesday Woes

So here's whats got me down folks… The mister and I started a pretty big life change about 2 and a half weeks ago. We started running 2 miles every day, we became more conscious about what and how much  we were eating, and we entirely cut out regular soda (gasp!) from our diet. Anyone who knows us, knows how much we both LOVE soda. I really really do. Drink of choice, hands down, is a coke, on the rocks, with a straw. But, those days are over. We both were so tired of not being happy with how we look. Me especially I think. Since having Sylas, Ive been in complete disgust of my body and have let it ruin parts of my life. Ive developed social anxiety, I'm forever uncomfortable in my skin, and I get edgy and uneasy around people. I found myself avoiding going out in public, or socializing at all because of this intense self loathing and self consciousness. Its ridiculous, I know, but I cant help it. So, instead of being a victim of insecurities, I decided I needed to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! And as soon as I started, it kicked Ro into gear and he joined me. So that’s exactly what we’ve been doing. At first the running was brutal. I was SO out of shape and we both spent the whole first week sore as hell. The second week, the soreness went away, the run got easier, and we both started feeling a little bit better of ourselves. The end of each week was an accomplishment! We’d tell anyone who’ll listen how we run 2 miles every day. It became such a great start to every day. At the beginning of the second week, I took measurements of my body so a week later when I re-measured, I could see the results for myself. I lost 5 whole inches!! In only ONE week! I was ecstatic, and honestly say I felt smaller. Everything was going great. But then, the second Friday of running I started getting some pretty severe knee pain. So I figured, after resting the weekend, Id be fine by this Monday. And after seeing my measurement results, I was stoked to start running again! Monday came around, and I could tell just getting out of bed that my knees were still sore. But I ran anyway, with pain in every step. By the end of the run the pain was pretty intense and persisted for the rest of the day. I couldn’t even move my knees without severe pain, let alone walk on them. That night I ended up having to take pain meds since, even at rest, my knees throbbed. So yesterday I decided I definitely needed to rest them again. This sucked! Here I was, losing 5 inches in a week from this running, accomplishing my main goal in life right now, because of this awesome source of cardio, and now I cant do it anymore. My body just wont let me! I did some research and am pretty sure I developed a pretty bad case of Runner’s Knee. No bueno. So yesterday I mowed the front and back lawn instead of running, and at the end I really felt like it was an equivalent workout, but my knees were still killing me. And that brings us to today. Knees are still too sore to run, so I skipped it AGAIN. I'm friggin pissed at this point. I just want to run and get in shape and feel good about myself! But my body will not let me. *lesigh. That, plus Ive got a wisdom tooth that has been KILLING me lately, but I don’t have insurance or the cash to take care of it right now, so I'm stuck. Stuck with  throbbing tooth and knees,  and a big fat ass that I cant work out to get rid of.

The mister says we can invest in some craigslist bikes and start biking instead of running, which is awesome, but we have to wait a week or two to get some since right now we’re saving all our money for Reggae Fest in Austin next weekend. The in laws are gonna keep the boys all day and overnight so we can go! I'm SO stoked. But id hoped to lose some more poundage before! My plan now is to go to Walmart today and pick up Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. Maybe if I do this instead of running for 30 days, I’ll lose enough weight so that running is easier. If not then we’ll start biking! Bottom line, I'm not giving up. I may be side lined today (which I feel like complete shit about) BUT tomorrow is another day and now that Ive seen what this change is doing for my body, I'm DETERMINED to continue. I want to get all the way down to my pre-Cashy weight, and I know this is how to do it!

Thanks for listening to me whine, and Happy Hump Day y'all!

Xo, L

Ps. Easter blog to come later today J